A couple weeks ago I decided to take a risk and enter the Lemonade & Lenses Summer 2013 Image contest. I normally don’t, whether it be for the lack of time or the fear of rejection. But this time I went for it…not only did I go for it I decided to enter images from my boudoir collection. Unless you know me well you probably don’t know that I’ve shot some boudoir and loved it but don’t openly advertise to the general public.
Getting back to the contest. The day for the announcements of the winners rolls around and I didn’t even think twice about it; I hadn’t received an email so I figured I didn’t place. I saw the link on another photographers page and clicked it…only to find out that my image had won First Place in the Boudoir category!! I must have been shaking out of pure shock for the next two hours. How many times have I allowed fear to hold me back from taking a risk in this adventure? Likely, at least 6 times every day. I talk about it with my photography friends constantly…the fear that what I do isn’t good enough, fear of what others might think, fear of disappointing, fear of putting my business and selfish desires above my friends and family.
My little family is on the cusp of some major changes… I am losing my part time job in the fall and are making the CHOICE to not pursue another position. I am going to stay home, grow up with Taylor, and finally give this photography business the attention it needs to thrive. This next step in our lives has been the desire of my heart for such a long, long time. I have held closely to the security of a job and a steady income but have felt muffled for too long. I ache for a chance to stretch out…see what I am capable of. We are on what many of our close friends have called a “faith journey” in our marriage, careers and as parents. I have to admit that the idea of a “faith journey” sounds lovely and romantic but really its just SCARY. Exhilarating, but scary.
So as we prepare for what looms ahead please say a prayer for us. Say a prayer for me…that I not squander this season that the Lord has brought us into. This is, as always, an act of worship above all else.