you know those movies that start out with the tough LA cop hunting down and chasing the crazy bad guy? Then the chief calls him in…”Agent X, we have a new special assignment…” it turns out to be kids.
thats right, i said kids.
he has to be some kind of high profile nanny for some kids in a witness protection program (or something like that). and we all know the story, the agent gets kicked around by the kids for a while, almost gets up and then gets a pep talk from the chief…the kids do something adorable and everyone tears up a little. eventually the he-nanny saves the day, but ONLY after admitting that its hard work. the tough-r-than-dirt cop admits its hard work taking care of kids.
anyone who is a mother will just say “duh”…i recently became a nanny and it has stretched me so much farther than i ever thought imaginable. there are days that are so hard, only to have an apology and a hug after the kids have been naughty (and they knew it). but then there are also those days that are so easy and i think i can do this forever.
i was never the “tough cop” type, but i did work with a pretty rough crowd as a substance abuse counselor for adolescents. you know i had kids yell and swear at me, i’ve had things thrown at my head, i was chased by pit bulls, i’ve seen my fair share of throw downs in the detention facility. i can handle a couple kids, right?
the one thing i didn’t count on is the nature of kids to not have insight into their own emotions in moments of breakdown. i mean there is no reasoning with a hysterical 8 year old is there. i mean a hysterical 16 year old, maybe. but 8. not likely.
it comes with the territory, and totally worth it. i love every minute of this new life (that i’ve had for the last 3 months…) being able to explore new passions, following new dreams and being challenged in a way that my counseling job NEVER did has exposed new parts of my heart that need some serious work. i wouldn’t change these new challenges ever. i don’t know what the future holds but i am looking forward with anticipation…